Why?

Why do bad things happen to such good people? Why do things happen the way they do? And why does all the bad stuff seem to happen all at once? I am most definitely asking myself these questions this week.

My oldest sister has been going through a rough time in her marriage and recently found out that divorce is what he wanted. On Monday though she found out some more hard news about all that. I couldn't imagine dealing with what she is dealing with right now plus continue to raise two kids and run a business. As much as the divorce is necessary, it would still be so hard to say good-bye after 14 years of marriage and like 3 dating. I just sit and ache for her, but mostly ache for my niece and nephew. I love them beyond words and never want to see them hurting. It's hard hearing all that she's going through and being so far away. I just want to wrap my arms around her and those kids and never let go. 

Thursday morning I talked to my mom quite a bit. She was shopping for Aubree so her house would be stocked when we got there. She kept talking over and over again about how excited she was for us to be there in a week. I love my mom and talk to her every single day. Thursday evening I get a phone call that she'd been in an accident. My first thought was a car accident on her way back home. Instead, she had fallen 7 feet off a concrete porch when the railing she was leaning against separated from the porch. Seriously? What a crazy accident. She broke her wrist in two places, dislocated her elbow, fractured her pelvic bone in 3 different places (2 on the left and one on the right) and fractured her sacrum. It's so hard seeing my mom in the shape she's in. She's having surgery on everything in the morning. I pray it all goes well and am so thankful I will be home all of July to help her. 

Saturday morning I'm beginning to feel a little better about my mom and then my sister calls with more bad news. My aunt and uncle were involved in a boating accident and it wasn't looking good for my aunt. That was the only information she had for me until about an hour later when she called back to let me know she didn't make it. My uncle was driving the boat and slowed down to let others go around when the boat behind him didn't see him and ran over top of their boat. Are you serious? Again, an insane accident.

I bawled until I felt like I had no more tears. Then my best friend calls to check on me and I bawl some more. Then my sister calls and I bawl some more. Then I walk into Aubree's room and see the quilt my aunt made for her and bawl some more. When I'm beginning to feel a little better, my uncle calls. (I really wasn't ready for that conversation.) His last words to me before he got off the phone were, "She wanted to hug on your baby girl so badly." I do wish she could've met her ): He's excited to see us. We fly out in the morning..

So why? Why do these things happen? I know there is a reason for all of this and some day I will have the answer, but right now I can't help but ask why. 

I've been feeling like something bad was going to happen soon. Things were just going way too good in our family and you can't always have everything perfect right? I just never imagined it would be any of this. 

Right now I'm really trying hard to focus on the many blessings I have. 
Thankful for a WONDERFUL husband who has taken such good care of me this week. He immediately got on the phone to take care of Aubree's 2 month check up that was supposed to take place Tuesday. He also immediately changed our flights to the next available one we could get. He knew how much I wanted to be with my family without me even having to say so. He really is truly wonderful and I'm so lucky to have him. 
Thankful for my sweet baby girl. She helps me get through these rough patches and I can't imagine life without her now. I can't get enough of holding and kissing her. She has blessed my life in so many ways already.
Thankful my mom is still here even if she is hurting right now. It could have definitely been worse. 
Thankful for the wonderful family that I have and for airplanes so I can get to the east coast to see them. 
Thankful for the job Rob has and for his dad allowing him to be so flexible that he can fly and be with me through all of this. 
Thankful for Katie for being so sweet and okay with the fact that I'll be gone all of July and can't help watch her cute boy, Dean. And thankful for Amanda who will be taking over. 
Thankful for the gospel. Rob and I went to the temple on Friday. It felt really good. I was very grateful for that trip and for Grandma Frye for watching Aubree. 
Most definitely thankful for eternal families. My aunt was a wonderful person and I'm glad she and my uncle were sealed together so they can be together again one day. 


It's been a rough week. I'm beyond over it.